Cane walking (part one)


In an attempt to accelerate the recovery of my achilles tendon injury, I underwent two Shockwave treatments; one in November and one in January. After each of those treatments, I was not allowed to walk for two days. For the 12 days after that, I was advised to “walk as little as possible, and as slowly as possible”. Knowing myself, I knew I had to find an external tool to keep myself from disregarding all pain and barge up and down the large Jan Schaefferbridge at the end of my street, to then do an aerobics video in my living room. File under: how I acquired this particular injury.

Inspired by a Hannah Witton video, I decided to buy a foldable walking stick that fit inside my purse. On a side note: there must be a difference between a cane and a walking stick, but I haven’t been able to figure it out and will therefore use both words when referring to the same thing. Anyway, this walking stick would both be supporting me and making sure I couldn’t walk faster than I should, but it would also signal to the outside world “I have difficulty walking, please don’t rush me”. Because The Netherlands in general and Amsterdam in particular is a stressed out mess.

Having lived here for the majority of my life, I am well aware of this fact, but I must say that every time I (due to illness or injury) am not able to keep up with the pace, it’s a shock. Amsterdam’s public space in particular is completely unsuited for anyone who has even a small mobility issue, let alone a large one. There’s bikes everywhere, curbs are often ridiculously high, elevators and escalators are regularly either broken or blocked by (you guessed it!) bikes, the traffic situation is often completely unclear. On top of that, most if not all Amsterdam pavements are wonky and far from smooth. I have been told that this is due to ground water level shifts and not because we are bad at laying pavements.

What also doesn’t help, are the almost constant renovations and works in various areas of the city. And of course the fact that after all this, a huge amount of tourists and a huge amount of people actually living here who are trying to get to work are thrown into the mix.

The resulting situation can only be described as “a complete mess”. Amsterdam has clearly become a city for young, healthy people, and I’m quite sure that I don’t have to explain to you why this is Not Ok.

This Month – February


Read – Online

Sure, blame the homeless: How the Homeless Ended Up Being Blamed for Typhus..

Let Me Tell You About My Friend Maria Butina — Who Might Be A Russian Spy.

YouTube Unleashed a Conspiracy Theory Boom. Can It Be Contained?.

Use the KonMari Method to Tidy Your Mind

Food for thought: The Best Skin-Care Trick Is Being Rich.

Karl Lagerfeld passed away. And despite – as a teen – being super impressed with his work ethos, his creativity and the fact that my favorite perfume ever (Chloé by Karl Lagerfeld, the discontinued 1975 edition) was released under his label, I can nowadays only agree with this article: Stop mourning oppressors: anti-condolences for Karl Lagerfeld.

Can a Night Owl Become a Morning Person? From personal experience: no. You can force yourself, with a lot of effort, misery and exhaustion, to become a little less of a night owl, but the best thing to do is to “just” find a career in which you don’t have to get up at 6 am. I really feel there should be more focus on this in high school during future career events.

The Rare and Stunning “Firefall” Returns to Yosemite National Park.

Beatles vs Monkees is now 2 – 2: Monkee Peter Tork has passed away.

Music writer Laura Snapes on her experiences: The Ryan Adams allegations are the tip of an indie-music iceberg,

For those who thought Jeffree Star was the only Myspace fossil who lives for drama still relevant today, check out Audrey Kitching’s fraudulent business.

Listened to – Music

Mark Ronson and Miley Cyrus – Nothing Breaks Like a Heart

Older, but new to me: On my mind van Ellie Goulding, structurally as perfect of a pop song as you can get.

Gerard Way & Ray Toro cover Happy Together and Hazy shade of winter

Mark Hollis of Talk Talk also passed away this month. While muso’s consider the later albums to be the absolute masterpieces, I have alway preferred the It’s my life album. I’d say it’s probably even one of my top 5 albums ever.

Listened to – Podcasts

I hate it but I love it: the episodes about Almost Famous and Titanic

Watched – Films and Documentaries

The radical story of Patty Hearst. I don’t know about this one. Of course, the horrors transpired are atrocious and should definitely not be swept aside, but I have a very hard time listening to all the people in this documentary who very firmly claim to know exactly who she was, what she was thinking and why she did things in a certain way, and who seem to have little to no knowledge, let alone regard for the ways in which trauma affects a person.

Tipped by Esmee: Basquiat – Rage to Riches.

Het wonder van Le Petit Prince, about how translators use translating Le Petit Prince as a way to save their endangered languages. Available on Picl.

Watched – TV and Youtube

Cremeclouds‘ room deco + journalling video

Minnie Small’s Favourite YouTube Channels, New Art Books, Supplies + More

A Ballerina’s Entire Routine, From Waking Up to Showtime

Making a mini zine (from start to finish)

Songwriters roundtable with Kesha, Dianne Warren, Tim McGraw, Mark Ronson, Boots Riley, Jack Antonoff, en David Crosby

George faked going on holiday for a week. Funny, but it also shows how easily you can be manipulated into believing things that are not real.

Miscellaneous awesomeness

Is it too much for me to ask for the Umbrella Academy umbrella to be sold again, now that Netflix has finally turned the books into a series? Please?

This Month – January


This month flew by, and not only because I had to walk very slowly following my shockwave treatment on my achilles tendon. I still owe you all the “Get out of the house!”-post detailing my adventures walking with a cane, but first let’s get the monthly round up out of the way.

On my Goodreads you can see that I am participating in the reading challenge once again. I have again decided to read at least 12 books, as this is a manageable amount of books to read in between all the other stuff I do.

Read – Online

For the people that missed the “David Bowie is…” exhibit, there’s an app.

Gymnast Katelyn Ohashi went viral.

Maybe the 10 years later meme on Facebook wasn’t such a good idea after all.

The Empty Mason Jar of the Influencer Economy: The Case of Caroline Calloway and her Creativity Workshop Tour.

Ballet danser Sergei Polunin entire existence has been a huge mess for quite some time, which has been excused and sometimes even encouraged by many in the (ballet) world because he’s just being a “tormented artist”. The Paris Opera Ballet however is having none of it. I am very curious to see if these consequences will lead to change, but I’m afraid that he will continue to socially, physically and mentally destroy himself completely while his adoring fans keep applauding him. What a waster.

The Not-So-Subtle Racism Behind the Marie Kondo Criticism.

I have written before about the Deciem drama, which has now come to a definitive end now that founder Brandon Truaxe died.

The Unbearable Heaviness of Clutter: A cluttered home can be a stressful home, researchers are learning. As a person who’s struggled (and sometimes still struggles) with hoarding tendencies, I say: chicken, egg. I do think it’s interesting that women suffer more from having a cluttered home than men. I’m going to assume that is because women are judged more harshly on the state of their home. Or their everything, basically.

An interesting take on the burn out phenomenon that has become so prevalent in YouTubers these days.

The Gillette Effect: What a Single Ad Reveals About American Men.

For the people who ask me why I, as an (old school) Queen fan have no intention of going to see the “Bohemian Rhapsody” movie: because director Bryan Singer sexually abuses young boys and has being doing so often and for a very long time, something that has been known by pretty much everyone in Hollywood and everyone that follows the Hollywood life. Note: despite the fact that he got fired from the movie (for unrelated reasons),  he will make 40 million dollars from this movie

De Efteling is adapting some of their “racially insensitive” characters in their Carnaval Festival ride.

The American Hotel in Amsterdam will be turned into a Hard Rock Hotel. Has the themeparkification of Amsterdam reached it’s zenith?

Listened to – Music

The Black Parade. Despite knowing this album from a to z to hidden track (especially the hidden track), it all of a sudden made me cry this time.

Marshmello ft. Bastille – Happier Cover (Grace Kelly & Cale Hawkins)

Listened to – Podcasts

I didn’t listen to any English language podcasts this month for some reason.

Watched – Films and Documentaries

Surviving R. Kelly. Even as a music loving teenager living in a not so big town in the east of The Netherlands (yes, this was the 90’s, no, we didn’t have internet yet) I knew through people in the know that he was a mega creep who preyed on young teenage girls. So it’s safe to say that even back then, everybody knew. Nobody did anything about it though, because “musical genius”, whatever the fuck that means. Now everybody is shocked and up in arms, but will anything change? Will this finally be the end of R. Kelly abusing women, more specifically black teenage girls? Or will things just continue as they always have over the last 25+ years? Calvin Michaels has a lot of interesting points about this documentary series.

From a practical point of view, a documentary about Margaret Staal-Kropholler, the first female Dutch architect.

The Mother of Beauty, about a Hollywood modeling agency in the 1940 – 1960, whose owner discovered/created Marilyn Monroe.

Watched – TV and Youtube

Shmoxd (“shmood”) DIYs stuff and makes awesome videos of that.

Making a Medicine Chest with lots of drawers.

Love this art studio!

2019 Bullet Journal Setup + January Plan with Me! I don’t even have a bullet journal, I just watch these videos to relax.

A doll house, from scratch.

Since it’s apparently The Month of the Disgusting Rapist Creep: Harvey Weinstein and the Oscars: How Gwyneth and Shakespeare in Love Won.

Miscellaneous awesomeness

Risograph machines and where to find them.

You wanna wear Amsterdam around your neck? You can.

And of course THE best track to have come out of House of Talent:

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