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The Netherlands, it’s time to officially abolish Zwarte Piet (“Black Pete”)


Here in The Netherlands, especially in the last 10 years, there has been a lot of discussion about the character Zwarte Piet (“Black Pete”). I have steered clear of this discussion, as there is nothing to discuss. It’s 2020, we have all the facts, and the solution to this problem is astonishingly simple: Zwarte Piet is a Blackface character, Blackface is racist, it’s time to abolish this Zwarte Piet character.

Back in the day, when I was still young and idealistic, I was convinced that, as long as I would calmly (never angry!) provide someone with racist opinions with the right arguments and the right facts, while using the correct tone and the perfect examples, they would undoubtedly see the error of their ways. Nowadays however, I know that I could talk until I’m blue in the face, but that if in 2020, with all that we know now, somebody is still pro-Zwarte Piet, there’s nothing I can say that will convince them otherwise. Like I said, it’s 2020. It’s not ignorance to the problem. It’s unwillingness to fix it.

As anybody who’s ever read an article on change management or who has worked in an office that still used WordPerfect 5.1 in 2003 “because Marie doesn’t want to learn how to use Word” knows, there are people who will flat out refuse to change. No matter how much you cater to them, no matter how much you take their feelings into consideration, no matter how much time and energy you spend on talking through their feelings and objections, they’re just not going to adapt to the new situation willingly. It’s just not going to happen, and to keep trying is just a waste of time, energy and money. In the case of Marie and her refusal to switch to Word, it’s simple: at some point, management will just implement the change. Marie will then have two choices: either to switch to Word, or to find employment elsewhere. In both cases the problem is solved.

I strongly feel that the Zwarte Piet “debate” has reached this point of “management needs to enforce the change” and I find it absurd that the Dutch government hasn’t taken any action at all up to now. Our Prime Minister won’t take any responsibility in this matter either, he just keeps talking about it as if it’s a case of individual responsibility, a personal problem that should be “figured out among the Dutch themselves”. What in the ever-loving neo-liberal bullshit is that? The way he talks about it, makes it seem that the Zwarte Piet situation is on par with a conflict between neighbours about the fence dividing their gardens, instead of a racist tradition that needs to be abolished. Just to make sure: racism is a type of discrimination. Discrimination is prohibited by law here in The Netherlands, it’s in Article 1 of the Constitution for the Kingdom of the Netherlands.

Actually, all language used by the Prime Minister on this matter is extremely manipulative: “People FEEL like they are being discriminated against”. No. People ARE being discriminated against. If I stomp on your toes and you scream “Ouch!”, it would be absolutely absurd if I were to say “I see that you feel like I’ve been standing on your toes”. No, I apologise for standing on your toes and, going forward, watch where I put my feet. The fact that the Prime Minister uses this particular manipulative language is completely on purpose by the way, it’s a way of trying to make the situation seem less serious than it is. [Note: If anyone wants to know more about manipulative language: I did my thesis on manipulative language in political speeches and have lots of articles I can share.]

Not only politicians, but also the Dutch media play an undermining role in this matter, by framing it as “People feel HURT by the Zwarte Piet character” instead of saying the truth, which is “The Zwarte Piet character is an expression of racist ideology, racism is considered discrimination, and discrimination is prohibited by law here in The Netherlands, time to abolish the Zwarte Piet character”, they created the possibility for debate. Because if it’s framed as being about “feelings”, it suddenly seems logical and fair to “hear all parties” and “take the pro-Zwarte Piet people’s feelings into consideration”, because “everybody has the right to have their feelings acknowledged” and “who is to decide that the feelings of the anti-Zwarte Piet people are more important of those of the pro-Zwarte Piet people”? And since this is The Netherlands and we looove talking and talking and talking things over until a compromise is reached, we’ve been talking and talking and talking and trying to reach a compromise for years now, despite this being THE type of situation in which there is no compromise. Because it’s not about opposing views and “hurt feelings”. It’s about racism, plain and simple. Racism is a type of discrimination. And discrimination is… exactly.

Even the United Nations have recommended (as that is all that is in their power) the Dutch government in 2015 (Page 4, under 17) to actively promote the elimination of the racist features of the Zwarte Piet character, and last week, the European Parliament has expressed their wish for the Zwarte Piet character to be abolished.

But it is of course a lot easier for the Dutch government and politicians to pretend that the Zwarte Piet situation is just a matter of “two opposing groups needing to figure out a compromise amongst themselves”, which in essence comes down to putting the onus on the people who are being discriminated against to “just go and convince the other group that you deserve to be treated decently”. This of course is victim blaming of the highest order, and it needs to stop.

As inhabitants of The Netherlands, we urgently need to increase the pressure on, well, everybody and everything, to abolish Zwarte Piet completely. We really need to stop with all the compromises like Roetveegpiet (“Soot Pete”) or “Regenboogpiet” (“Rainbow Pete”), they are just diversion tactics stemming from White fragility that only undermine the cause. Roetveegpiet just confirms that “he’s not Black, he’s just got soot on his face from sliding down the chimney” and we all know THAT isn’t true. This is just going to lead to endless discussions on “How much soot is still acceptable and how dark can that soot be?” and… Just stop giving the pro-Zwarte Piet people ways to defend Blackface. The same goes for Regenboogpiet. Rainbows are among my top 3 things in life, but let’s not pretend that painting a rainbow on your face is the solution to the Zwarte Piet problem. It ignores the severity of Blackface, and promotes the “All colours are the same!”, which undoubtedly will slide into “I don’t see colour! I am colourblind! See, I’m not racist!”, which are unbelievably problematic statements, as has been extensively documented, well, everywhere. Because it’s not just the colour of his face that is the issue with Zwarte Piet. It’s the colour of his face, the outfit he’s wearing, the wig, the horrific history that this character is inextricably linked to.

Look at what is happening in the USA and in the UK: they don’t go around giving statues of slave holders and other atrocious historical figures face lifts, new hairdos or an new outfit to try and “fix” things, they just get rid of the whole damn statue. The only way to fix this Zwarte Piet situation that has been allowed to drag on for way longer than necessary, is to abolish the character completely.

So let’s stop spending all our time and energy trying to convince our family members one by one that racism is really a thing (especially not via Facebook) and instead do what Kick Out Zwarte Piet mentions on their website under “What can I do?”. I would specifically suggest to focus on filing complaints with organisations, and sending emails to both local politicians and politicians in parliament, to ask them what they are going to DO to fix this matter. Do remind them of the fact that next year is an election year. Sign a petition or start your own.

Talk about it at school, contact the local organisers of the Sinterklaasfeest (the holiday Zwarte Piet is currently part of), the neighbourhood association, the sports associations. Boycot the holiday. Don’t go to festivities, don’t watch the Sinterklaasjournaal (“Sinterklaas news”, a show that is on television during the Sinterklaas holiday season), don’t buy Sinterklaasgoodies. Let your city council, the producers of the Sinterklaasjournaal, and shop owners know that it’s time to abolish Zwarte Piet completely. Especially companies that are trying to sell you something are, as we have seen proof of in the last three weeks, especially sensitive to public pressure and fear losing out on money. Use the fact that most businesses have zero principles whatsoever and the fact that Black Lives Matter is “trendy” right now to your advantage.

“But will this holiday still be fun for kids if there aren’t any Pieten, Black or otherwise?” Abolishing Zwarte Piet can be the excellent start of the reimagining of the entire holiday, starting with the whole lying to kids about how “Sinterklaas is really, really real!”, involving all kinds of elaborate schemes to make them believe this is true, and then at some point when they’re a bit older going “Haha! We lied! He’s not! We fooled you!” Stop lying to kids people, there literally is no reason for it. Children are well aware that Elsa and Anna aren’t “real”, but that doesn’t stop them from loving and enjoying the characters.

Other ways in which I would update the Sinterklaas holiday: First, I would get Sinterklaas a mobility scooter, which considering that he’s about 1700 year old is more appropriate than the horse he rides in on. The Pieten will be replaced by a group of 20-ish year olds wearing personalised overalls, who help Sinterklaas out and keep him up to date to “How society works”, a kind of grandchild – grandpa dynamic, which makes sense considering this is supposed to be a holiday geared towards children. This group of youngsters will be called the S-Team, which is of course short for “Sinterklaas Team”, but also spell “steam”, referring back to the boat on which Sinterklaas travels to The Netherlands from Spain. Side note: For the people thinking I’m making all of this up, check out the Wikipedia entry on Sinterklaas, and you will see that I’m dead serious. #cantmakethisshitup

The members of the S-Team are excellent dancers, which is great considering there’s both a TikTok hype going around, and a need for kids to move more. The S-Teamers are also musically talented, and work together with young Dutch artists to create modern sounding songs with modern lyrics. I’m thinking of a whole new Sinterklaas repertoire, combined with songs about topics kids deal with in their lives, and current events. Anyway, the fact that I just thought this all up in 3 minutes, shows that if a couple of professional producers get to work, they’ll be able to create a holiday without Pieten that could be fun for ALL kids.

“But what if people start rioting?” Then the Dutch police force will finally have something more useful to do than to racially/ethnically profile people. Sorry not sorry.

I don’t think we’re going to get massive riots. Sure, the professional racist and the “I don’t care what it is, I’m against it, because I just wanna fuck shit up!”-crowd will probably set up a date through Facebook to yell some nonsense and fuck some shit up, but they’ve already been doing that once in a while anyway. Knowing the Dutch Mentality, people will at first cry bloody murder, mostly online on Twitter and Facebook, and then begrudgingly adapt to the new situation. A couple of years later, these exact people will claim that they have always been against Zwarte Piet, and that they’re so happy to see that they have been proven right that the holiday is more fun without that “awful character”. Of course you’ll always have the Maries of this world who will forever hold on to Zwarte Piet, or WordPerfect 5.1 for that matter. That is however absolutely no reason to keep things the way they are.

Don’t let “Black Lives Matter” be a hollow catchphrase in your life. The Netherlands needs to abolish Zwarte Piet. Officially.

Black Lives Matter, anti-racism, where do I start? [compilation post]


Since the murder of George Floyd on 25 May 2020, the whole world is aware of what has been the daily reality for Black Americans for centuries now. Similarly, I don’t think this situation comes as any surprise to non-American Black people all over the world.

I have noticed that there are many, often White, people who really want to structurally help work towards a change, but who are completely overwhelmed to the point of not knowing where to start. The advantage of social media is that it’s fast and that you’re able to convey a lot of information in a short time. This is also its big disadvantage, in my opinion. It’s great for speedy action, but it’s not the best for deepening and broadening your knowledge about a certain situation. Most people check their social media during the moments “in between” the rest of their lives, and there’s very few people who read 25 page articles and watch 90 minute documentaries on their phone while taking the tram or sitting in a waiting room. Apart from that, racism is a topic so important, so enormously pervasive and so complex that it needs, no, deserves more than being studied “sometime in between” groceries and dinner.

To try and help people who want to learn more about racism and what they can do to fight it, I have compiled a list of compiled documents, links to organisation websites, books, articles, movies, documentaries and academic lecture series that are interesting, useful and/or can teach you something. Please note that this list is very incomplete and in no way meant to be a “definitive list” or anything of that kind. I just figured it could be a starting point for further personal research:

Compilation documents containing (background)information (articles, books, pdf’s, podcasts), links to petitions, and links to organisations you can donate to, made and updated by people/organisations in the USA

Ways You Can Help. As they say: “When You’re Done: Educate Yourself. This Doesn’t Go Away Once The Topic Isn’t “Trending.””

#DefundThePolice petition

Natl Resource List by @botanicaldyke on Twitter

Antiracist allyship starter pack

Literature and non-fiction

Ralph Ellison – Invisible Man

Franz Fanon – Black Skin, White Masks

Reni Eddo-Lodge – Why I no longer talk to white people about race

The following four writers have all written extensively during their lives, so I’m not going to recommend just one of their books:

Maya Angelou

James Baldwin

Audre Lorde

Toni Morrisson


A Band Called Death. How three brothers from Detroit invented punk. In the early ’70.

I am not your Negro. The James Baldwin documentary.

Black Ballerina. “Black Ballerina tells the story of several black women from different generations who fell in love with ballet. Six decades ago, while pursuing their dreams, Joan Myers Brown, Delores Browne and Raven Wilkinson confronted racism, exclusion and unequal opportunity. Today, young dancers of color continue to face formidable challenges breaking into the overwhelmingly white world of ballet. Moving back and forth in time, this lyrical, character driven film shows how far we still have to go and stimulates a fresh discussion about race, inclusion and opportunity across all sectors of American society”.

Jimi Hendrix: Hear My Train A Comin’


Father Figure: Dutch language documentary about Guilliano, a young Black gay man who has come to accept himself more since participating in the vogueing scene.

Hidden Figures, movie based on the non-fiction book “Hidden Figures: The American Dream and the Untold Story of the Black Women Who Helped Win the Space Race” by Margot Lee Shetterly.

Soulmates : Dutch language documentary about the Ladies of Soul, who are preparing their yearly stadium performance series.

Devil’s Pie: D’Angelo


Brands are Doing This on Purpose: Snitchery explains that million dollar companies having racist “incidents” are no accident: they do it on purpose because it generates attention.

Who is allowed to be a victim? Ted Talk by “Travis Alabanza, a London-based performance artist, writer and general sh*t talker that uses poetry, words, soundscapes and performance to scream about their survival as a black, trans, gender non conforming person in the UK”.

What Missy Elliott did for Afrofuturism

Ballet Shoes Made For Brown-Skinned Ballerinas. The ballet world is unfortunately racist through and through, and change is very, very slow.

The lost neighborhood under New York’s Central Park. Before Central Park was built, a historically black community was destroyed.


Just to make sure: Why Reverse Racism Isn’t A Thing

Disco superstar Sylvester: Why his relevance still feels mighty real.

There’s No Such Thing as a Dangerous Neighborhood

A New Report Highlights the Shocking Racial Disparity Among L.A.’s Homeless Population

‘So flawed and problematic’: why the term ‘world music’ is dead

Disco Demolition: the night they tried to crush black music

The White Lies of Craft Culture

As a black teenager, I loved Morrissey. But heaven knows I’m miserable now. “I used to defend Morrissey against accusations of racism. Now I feel betrayed by his support for bigots like Tommy Robinson”. When your childhood idol turns out to be racist.

Op-Ed: Kareem Abdul-Jabbar: Don’t understand the protests? What you’re seeing is people pushed to the edge


Dipsaus, a Dutch language podcast by and about women of colour.

Can hip hop save ballet? “In the world of classical ballet, black dancers are conspicuous by their absence. Eric Underwood, a former soloist with The Royal Ballet, wants to understand what might be restricting their participation”.

Academic lecture series

African American History: From Emancipation to the Present. 25 lectures on African-American history. They’re available for free!

Nederland & de slavernij Een hoorcollege over de Nederlandse rol in de Trans-Atlantische slavenhandel, Dutch language academic lecture series on the Dutch involvement in the Trans-Atlantic slave trade, available for download for € 27,95.

The Netherlands

I have decided not to translate this part, as the websites and information I link to are also in Dutch. If there is any information down here or on any of the websites that I have linked that you need translated, please let me know in the comments or by DMing me on Instagram and I will gladly translate it for you.

The Black Archives. “The Black Archives is een historisch archief waar mensen terecht kunnen voor inspirerende gesprekken, inhoudelijke activiteiten en boeken vanuit zwarte en andere perspectieven die elders vaak onderbelicht blijven”. Je kunt hier doneren. Ook zoeken ze vrijwilligers: rondleiders en mensen die willen helpen archiveren.

Stichting Nederland Wordt Beter. “Stichting Nederland Wordt Beter richt zich op een toekomst zonder racisme en uitsluiting. Wij zijn van mening dat dit alleen bereikt kan worden door het erkennen van de invloed die het koloniale en slavernijverleden heeft op de huidige samenleving en op alle Nederlanders. De stichting zet zich in voor meer kennis over de gevolgen van het koloniale en slavernijverleden van Nederland”. Je kunt doneren of vrijwilligerswerk doen.

Gloria Wekker – Witte Onschuld

Zwarte Piet, een blackfacepersonage Een eeuw aan blackfacevermaak in Nederland

De situatie waarover Het Parool al in 2018 berichtte, dat een aanzienlijke groep Surinamers in Nederland minder AOW ontvangt dan hun Nederlandse leeftijdsgenoten nog steeds niet opgelost is. Deze situatie is ontstaan omdat zij volgens de boeken minder dan 50 jaar (de tijd die het duurt om een volledige AOW op te bouwen) in Nederland hebben gewoond voordat zij de pensioengerechtigde leeftijd hebben bereikt. Er wordt echter geen enkele rekening gehouden met het feit Suriname vanaf het moment dat ze geboren zijn tot het moment dat ze hier zijn komen wonen, bij het Nederlands Koninkrijk hoorde. Ze hebben dus 50 jaar in Nederland gewoond, en gewoon recht op het volle bedrag. Er zijn schriftelijke vragen over gesteld, en er is een petitie aangeboden aan het begin van dit jaar, maar tot nu toe is er geen oplossing in zicht.

Welke rol speelde Nederland in de slavernij? Snel overzichtsartikel over de geschiedenis van de slavernij in Nederland.

Nationaal instituut Nederlands slavernijverleden en erfenis

Slavernij en jij. “Voor iedereen die meer wil weten over het Nederlandse slavernijverleden is er nu Slavernij en Jij. Op deze website treft de bezoeker onmisbare basiskennis over dit deel van de Nederlandse geschiedenis”.

Keti Koti Amsterdam, de jaarlijkse herdenking en viering van de afschaffing van de slavernij. Dit jaar (2020) is de herdenking afgelast vanwege de Coronasituatie, in 2021 vindt de viering zoals altijd weer plaats op 1 juli. Meer informatie over een alternatieve herdenking dit jaar volgt.

Vrouwen in de Nederlandse slavernij: een lijst van publicaties over dit onderwerp.

Anton de Kom: schrijver, nationalist en verzetsstrijder: vogelvlucht biografie van Anton de Kom, onder andere schrijver van het boek “Wij slaven van Suriname”.

Anton de Kom: ‘Strijden ga ik!’, biografie van Anton de Kom vanuit Amsterdams perspectief.

Heden van het slavernijverleden, een vaste tentoonstelling in het Tropenmuseum in Amsterdam. In 2021 opent een nieuwe, uitgebreide tentoonstelling over het koloniaal- en slavernijverleden.

Wit huiswerk, een site “bedoeld voor witte mensen die zich hun strijd tegen racisme willen verdiepen”.

Fixing the bum leg [recovering from achilles tendinopathy]


Now that it seems that, after two years of treatments, my achilles injury has finally almost completely healed, I figured that it might be interesting and/or useful to share my story. I am of course not a (sports) physician, nor a physical therapist or a podiatrist. It is also important to remember that this is just my story, every body is different and thus every healing process is also different. Apart from that, not all factors involved in recovery of this injury are known, which means that we can’t make sure to influence all these factors, meaning that it’s not a case of “It’s your fault, because you didn’t do enough/did something wrong” if your injury doesn’t completely heal. Achilles tendinitis, also known as achilles tendinopathy, is an injury known to be very persistent and hard to treat, and I hope that my story can bring some hope to people dealing with it.

In January 2018 I would walk for an hour every day, and do low impact aerobics in my living room three times a week. After one particularly rigorous “march-and-side step”-session, I noticed pain in my achilles tendon, that subsided after resting for a day. At that point, I worried only a bit: I spent my youth figure skating and dancing, and I’ve always had a pain or some injury somewhere since I was 8. Most pains subside and are nothing to worry about, in my experience. I also know from experience that the pains that don’t subside, usually end up being extremely persistent painful injuries.

The first few weeks it looked like I was lucky: the pain did not become worse, and as long as I took enough rest, everything seemed fine. At some point however, the bump on my tendon did not disappear after resting. Even worse: the bump grew from pea sized to Easter egg sized. In May 2018 I had to admit to myself that I had a problem: I was in constant, heavy, nagging pain, and sometimes it felt like somebody stuck a knife in my tendon. I limped my way to my physical therapist who told me what I already knew: I had a severe case of achilles tendinitis, and it would take a while for it to get any better.

We pulled out all the stops: stretches, continuing to move at a low intensity (so no “bed rest”), massage therapy, kinesio taping (magical stuff!) and dry needling. Recovery was slow. Very slow. For weeks, sometimes months, there was little to no improvement. It felt a bit better, then it felt a bit worse. I tried using a night splint, that was supposed to stretch my achilles tendon during the night, but to no avail. It was only later that my podiatrist would tell me that this was due to my particular anatomy. Apparently, my type of leg is unsuited for this type of splint. Or the other way around.

I tried my hardest to stay positive and patient during this recovery process. However, the pain and the unpredictable “It’s getting better, oh wait no, it’s getting worse, it’s better, it’s not improving, it’s getting worse”-situation I found myself in, made me very desperate. I would wake up at night because of the pain, and I lost track of the number of mornings that I had to hop myself to the bathroom and the kitchen, because it would take a half an hour of massages and exercises to even be able to use my leg. I was supposed to keep walking short distances, but when you live in Amsterdam but don’t have a bike nor a car, you sometimes end up having to walk more than you should. Wearing a compression sock marketed to hikers helped to alleviate some of the pain and pressure caused by bloating. I kept stretching, my physical therapist kept treating me the best she could, but in September 2018 my recovery process halted almost completely. I decided to make an appointment with a sports physician.

In November 2018 the sports physician told me, again, what I already knew: I had a case of chronic achilles tendinitis, with calcification deposits, I had up to now done everything I should have, and everything that could be done to recover. There was only one possible treatment left: ShockWave therapy. I decided to undergo this treatment, and made an appointment for the end of November. ShockWave therapy uses high energy acoustic waves to crush the calcification deposits. That sounds like it would be painful, and it was. On a level from 1 to 10, it was about a 14. It was THE worst pain I ever suffered in my life: for 4 whole minutes, it felt like somebody was hammering a blunt nail into the periosteum of my ankle. The first two days after the treatment I was not allowed to walk, and the 12 days afterwards, I had to walk as little as possible. Here is a blog post about my experiences walking with a cane, and here is a blog post about my experiences in public transport.

At the beginning of January, it’s 2019 by now, the sports physician concluded that the first ShockWave treatment had been a success, after which I suffered my way through the second and last treatment. Recovering from this second treatment was harder than the first time, in part because my expectations were high. The first treatment had made such a difference, that I expected the second treatment to fix me completely, after which I would be done with this injury forever and could go back to landing triple Axels. Figuratively, of course. In reality, my leg still hurt, and I still had that Easter egg sized bump on my tendon, albeit smaller.

At some point, this whole situation made me so desperate that I seriously considered just having my foot amputated. Google told me that 1) this was not possible and 2) that even if it was possible, it would only make matters worse, but it does give an impression of how deeply, deeply miserable and desperate I was at that point. I did consider an operation where the achilles tendon is partially or completely removed, but as you can imagine, this has huge implications for the range of motion of the foot, and in turn huge implications for the rest of your body. Seeing that my body and my general fitness are not at their best during this period of my life, I figured this would not be the best solution in the long term.

My sports physician however, was not desperate at all. He was very satisfied with the results we were at right now, and assured me that I was still on my way to making a complete recovery. It was a matter of time, patience and carrying on: keep doing my stretches, keep going to my physical therapist, keep walking-but-not-too-much, and especially steering clear of operations and injection. He suggested that I could see my podiatrist and ask her if it was possible to tweak my fancy insoles to aid my recovery. This turned out to be the case. So with a compression sock on my injured leg, tweaked insoles and with my foldable cane in my hand bag I kept my hopes up and my walk on. In moderation, of course.

In the following months, I noticed that the pain very slowly but very surely decreased. After a while, the pain shifted to a different spot in my calf, probably due to the insole adjustment, and eventually the Easter egg on my achilles tendon shrunk back to pea size. I monitored my pain levels every day, and while I would sometimes suddenly have a very bad day, in general the days in which I was in pain decreased. At the beginning of 2020 I realised that I had been pain free for a whole week. A little while later I saw that the bump on my tendon was gone.

At this moment, more that two years after this injury started, I seem to have completely recovered. I am slowly building up both the amount and the intensity of my walks, and I do notice that my leg is less strong, for lack of a better term, and that my muscles tense up quicker. The fact that I am no longer 20 most likely also factors into this. Fact is, that I will have to be (more) careful than I used to. My most important goal at the moment is therefore to make sure I don’t get injured again, both specifically not reinjuring my achilles tendon, and in general. Which is a case of just carefully putting one foot in front of the other, I guess.